“Baptism in Dresden”
You were bathed
In history
Before
You were bathed
In fire.
Now you are
A city
Unstuck in time.
The art of the ages
Fills your halls
And galleries
Like beautiful mutes,
Staring unflinchingly
Into human eyes
That cannot help
But look away.
But the teenage girls
Do not look.
Instead, they sit
On circular couches
Like in the parlors
Of old,
Besieged by the work
Of the masters,
Running polished nails
Across tiny screens
To catch
The latest gossip.
So it goes.
In the corner,
I think I see
Mark Twain.
His hair is red
Instead of white,
And he’s wearing
Brown corduroy pants
With a green sweater.
I smile at him,
And he whistles,
“Poo tee weet?”
Then he melts
In the flames
Of time,
The same flames
That scorched
Your stones
And sculptures
And left them
Charred
Forever.
The children
Sit around
The austere
Figure of Luther
In the square.
He threatens
To find
A church door,
But he too
Is frozen,
Eyeing the buses
Turned on their ends
Driving into the sky.
Construction crews
Are still working,
Have been working
Always
Since 1945,
To reclaim
Your former glory
Like a troop
Of hard-hatted Gatsbys
Dreaming of the night
They kissed mortality
And were doomed
To a holocaust
Of reprisal.
I want to tell them
They can’t repeat
The past,
But we are
Separated
By more than language,
More than time.
Like you, Dresden,
I am unstuck,
Have always been so,
Born to parents
Of another age,
Nestled awkwardly
Between cousins
Who were too old
And second cousins
Who were too young.
I think of my uncle,
The one I never knew,
Whose picture rested
On my mother’s
China cabinet.
He seemed so clean
In his uniform,
Ageless in black
And white,
Frozen forever
With his charming smile.
Like you,
He burned
In the fires
Of war.
His fortress flew
Over the fatherland
Raining down death
On those
Who would reign
Over all.
He died in the doorway
Of his plane
After his men had jumped.
They fell
Like upside down drops
Of rain,
Their white shoots
Turned upward
As they floated
Downward
To certain capture
And likely death.
They watched
As my uncle
Exploded
In a mixture
Of metal and fire
And disappeared
Into the nothingness
Of the night.
I wonder if he was here,
Floating over you,
Sending down bombs
Filled with fire,
Burning away the sins
Of your fathers.
I think he was dead
Before that fateful night
When a young boy
Gave birth to a writer,
Crouching in a slaughterhouse,
Hiding far within himself,
As hell itself
Engulfed
A city of art
And culture.
I don’t know
What to say to you, Dresden.
I just know
That when I saw
Your stones
I cried.
I can’t tell
If I did so for you
Or for me,
But it made me hope
That time
Can still cleanse
with water
As well as
With fire.
I wonder
If the heavens
Are full
Of enough tears
To wash away
All that we were,
All that we are,
And all that we ever will be.
(I chose to use the same format for the video as I did with Charleston. The music in it reminds me of time, which seems fitting for what I was experiencing.)
Love the nod to Vonnegut and your own history. This is beautiful.